This past Wednesday, I did a Friday Fictioneers story called Jasper’s Lamp. It’s a creepy story about five generations of women and their relationship to a lamp that has something growing inside it. The problem is, that the Friday Fictioneers stories are 100 words and I wanted to say more about it. So I wrote this one to tell the whole story. It’s a bit long, but if you like creepy, then enjoy.
“I brought it,” my mother says, and with those three innocuous words, a shiver of terror goes down my back. This is the moment I have been dreading since my grandmother showed me the lamp and told me it would one day be mine.
“I don’t want it,” I say. “How dare you bring that thing here?”
Her eyes are filled with the wearied horror that comes from years of caring for a monster. “Look, I promised my mother I would do this. Throw it away if you want. I don’t care. I’m sorry to do this to you, Sarah. God knows I’m sorry, but now I’m done. I’ve fulfilled my promised. I brought the papers too.”
With that, she stands up and walks to the front door. “I don’t want it!” I shout after her. I know it is useless; the front door clicks shut.
I go to the door in time to see her drive away. The lamp is sitting next to the door, covered loosely by a canvas bag. I am tempted to leave it there, but of course that is impossible. What if Evelyn, my daughter, sees it? What if the wind blows the bag off and the neighbors see the monstrosity that is underneath?
It takes all my willpower to knowingly bring that thing into my house; to actually put my hand under the glass globe and lift it, holding that terror so close to my body. A folio bound with a string is next to it, and after I bring the lamp inside, I get the papers and bring them into the kitchen.
They smell old, with a mustiness that reminds me of sickness. I make some coffee and then open the folio. My mother has told me about these papers, which my grandmother collected as a history of the lamp and an ongoing record of it. She loved it, my mother said, although I cannot understand why.
The papers on top are a bundle of yellowed, type-written transcriptions of an interview between my grandmother Ursula and her mother, my great-grandmother Celeste.
Ursula: Tell me about my father, Jasper.
Celeste: Jasper, he was quite the dashing young man. He was dark-skinned, and my parents didn’t approve of him, but he was a romantic. Always talking about places he’d been all over the world. He said he’d take me with him sometime, but I didn’t want to go. Getting malaria in some sweaty, God-forsaken jungle, no thank you.
Ursula: And when did he give you the lamp?
Celeste: The lamp. He sent it to me, if you can believe it. I don’t how it didn’t break, but he packed it tight into a crate with straw and paper and bits of rag. It was an oil lamp back then, not the electric lamp you’ve made it now.
Ursula: Can you describe the lamp?
Celeste: Describe it? You know damn well what it looks like! Fine though, I guess it has changed over the years. When I first opened the package, it was a brass oil lamp, with a glass chimney and underneath, a large glass globe. Inside the globe, there was a single eyeball floating, about as big as a cow’s eye. Gave me one hell of a fright. I found the note he sent with it. ‘I need you to look after this for me. Promise you will, it’s important. I’ll be back for it soon, but for now, keep the lamp burning. Keep it warm!’ That’s all he said, no ‘I love you’ or anything.
Ursula: And that was the last you heard of him?
Celeste: That was it. He was heading for Indochina when I said goodbye to him for the last time, but that note and the lamp was the last I got from him. Five months later, you were born. I did as he asked though, taking care of you and the lamp, keeping it lit, although I covered up the bottom most of the time. I couldn’t abide that big, staring eye just looking, always looking. I kept expecting it to fall apart, just decay, but as you know, it didn’t.
Ursula: When did you first notice it growing?
Celeste: you were about three at the time. You were toddling around and you grabbed at the skirting around the lamp and yanked it off. You screamed when you saw the eye first, but then you couldn’t keep away from it. You named it George, I remember. It was then I noticed it was growing, that there was more flesh behind it and another eye growing next to it, though at that time, it was dull and undeveloped.
Ursula: What do you think about the lamp?
Celeste: [sighs] I didn’t like it and I still don’t. It still gives me the creeps and if you didn’t have such a connection to it, I would order you to destroy it when I die. But Jasper’s last letter to me made me promise to take care of it and I did it for him. You can do what you like with it. For years, I kept imagining he’d come back and take it off my hands. I don’t suppose he will now though.
The transcript ends there. I heard hints of this from my grandmother, but not everything. The next thing in the folio is a battered,spiral-bound notebook. On the cover, it says, “The Book of the Lamp, by Ursula McIntyre-Willis”. I didn’t know about this.
June 5, 1958: I’ve decided to call the thing Jasper instead of George. Not that it’s Father, but I never met him and this is all I have from him. Sometimes when I look into the lamp, I can imagine those eyes speaking to me as they look unblinkingly into mine. I can almost understand, but not quite. It’s frustrating. Both eyes are full size now and a body is growing behind them.
I flip through a few pages. My grandmother Ursula has made detailed notes about its development and her feelings about it.
August 19, 1961: The body is taking on a definite shape now and I can see a head forming around the eyes. Last night I had the insane thought to open the globe, even though I knew it might endanger Jasper. I pried off the lamp part, but the globe is totally sealed, as if it was made whole. I don’t know how they did it. I will replace the lamp with an electric one, I think.
July 29, 1964: My husband Randy tried to smash the globe with a baseball bat. He’s always hated Jasper, but the bat didn’t even make a scratch. He knows not to try to touch Jasper again though. I made sure of that.
February 3, 1968: The kids never want to go near Jasper. I don’t care about Brody, but if Rose is going to take care of him after me, she needs to love Jasper as much as I do. An hour a week in the closet together should help their relationship. If she looks into Jasper’s eyes, he’ll speak to her.
March 28, 1970: I got the good idea to record my mother’s recollections of the lamp. She never loved him as much I did. I’m glad she let me take care of him.
July 2, 1973: The area over his eyes has been thickening for almost a year now. At first, I thought they were fading, but now I see it is the eyelids growing. Last night, I saw my dear Jasper’s eyes for the last time. Now they are shut and he is sleeping.
November 6, 2003: I am going into a nursing home tomorrow and I can’t keep Jasper anymore. My heart is breaking, but now it’s Rose’s turn.
At the top of the next page, my grandmother has written my mother’s name: Rose Willis-Hunter. But the pages afterwards are blank. At the back of the notebook, I find a letter from my mother to me. It has been crumpled up, but then smoothed out again. It is dated June 20, 2007, the day after my grandmother’s funeral.
I feel like I’ve been living in a nightmare most of my life and the last thing I want to do is pass it on you. You were there for the reading of the will, but there was a secret clause about it. She left it to me along with her papers and a book of things that the thing inside has supposedly told her. She wants me to pass it on to you when I get old.
My darling Sarah, forgive me. I will keep it away from you as long as I can, but you have no idea what it was like living with her. She broke me, slowly but steadily. I hate that thing, but I can’t destroy it and I can’t abandon it. I dream about my mother even now and about that thing she loved. The hours she locked me in the closet with it before its eyes closed changed me somehow. I hate it and I hate myself for being so weak.
At the bottom, in red pen, my mother has scribbled, I threw this letter away, but decided to show it to you anyway. It was a moment of truth I don’t think I can bring myself to repeat. I burned the book of things it told her. I made the mistake of reading it and I may be weak, but I couldn’t let that survive. I left the notes she made of its history, so you’ll know the truth and be warned.
I close the folio and go out into the hallway, where the lamp is sitting. With a deep breath, I pull off the canvas bag.
The monster, Grandma Ursula’s Jasper, lays curled up inside. It is more developed than the first time I saw it, that time when Grandma brought me up to her secret library when my mother was away. This is Jasper, she said, as if introducing me to a friend. One day, he will be yours to take care of. Now, I can see a whip-like tail curled around the bottom, curved spines along its back and its hundreds of little legs curled up, each ending in a single claw. Its closed left eye is pressed against the glass now. I have a sudden image of it opening and I throw the bag back over the lamp. Somehow, I get the lamp down to the basement and bury it behind boxes.
I go out to do errands and come back that afternoon to find, with horror, my 8-year-old daughter Evelyn reading the papers about the lamp I have thoughtlessly left out on the table.
“What’s this?” she asks.
“Nothing,” I say, grabbing them.
“Do we have this lamp?” When I don’t reply, she continues, “Where is it? I want to see it.”
It’s like I don’t have a choice. With mute horror, I lead her downstairs and move aside the boxes, aware that I am continuing the chain. Show her now and she will be revolted by it, I think, to comfort myself.
“So this is Jasper. Wow, he’s so cool,” she says, gazing into the globe.
“It’s just a thing and it’s not cool.”
“But great-grandma Ursula called him Jasper,” she says. “He’s almost done, right?”
“Done?” I ask with alarm. “What do you mean?”
“Well, from the notes on the table, he’s been growing for years. So when he’s finished growing, he’ll wake up, right?”
“What makes you say that?”
“I don’t know. I guess I just assumed.”
“Look, Evelyn. Don’t come down here, okay? This thing is evil. I’m going to get rid of it, okay?”
“But I want to be there when his eyes open,” she says and my mind revolts at the smile on her face. Not for this! I want to shout. Not for you, Jasper. You can’t have her.
I lay awake in bed that night, thinking. I am all by myself since my husband left two years ago and I need to do something to stop this. I need to destroy the lamp, carry it to a dump, drop it into the ocean, anything to get it away. I fantasize about doing it, day after day, while I keep the basement door locked and an eye on my daughter. But I feel that time is running out. It’s almost done,” Evelyn said, and I feel it too. So I keep on, think about destroying it and do nothing and hate myself for doing nothing, around and around, in a maddening spiral.
But I have to do something. I have to. Before the eyes open.
February 9th, 2014 at 6:22 pm
hey! this is not enough… we want more!
its fantastic, loved the tight script! the hunger is half satiated only!
February 9th, 2014 at 7:58 pm
You want me to write a novel about it. 🙂 That seems to be the next step.
February 9th, 2014 at 11:24 pm
honestly, a substantial sized story is lurking from background! its a very, very intriguing plot!
February 10th, 2014 at 12:07 am
There is a lot I could do with it, you are right. Obviously there is the whole question of what this thing and where it comes from. I’ll think about it. 🙂
February 18th, 2014 at 11:18 pm
please seriously think about it. its a very promising long story- with your talent you can make it a novel. there are so many questions unanswered!
what is it, from where did it came, how did it ended up in there, what will it do now…
February 9th, 2014 at 10:01 pm
You might be able to write a novel about it, but I’m not sure I’d want to read it. I think this story is quite enough horror. Of course a novel would have to deal with its awakening and somehow you’d have to find some good element to include, or it would just be a horrible story. By the way, this is very well written, even if it is rather creepy.
February 9th, 2014 at 10:50 pm
Well, thank you for that. I won’t write a novel about it, at least not at the moment. Of course, if I did, it would not be such a concentrated mood. Don’t worry, the next piece I’m doing is something lighter. 🙂
February 12th, 2014 at 7:06 pm
[…] After the creepy story last time, I decided for something a little lighter…kind of. I had a few people last week ask for more of the story, Jasper’s Lamp, so I wrote it. You can read the longer and creepier version of Jasper’s Lamp here, if you’d like. […]
February 12th, 2014 at 8:57 pm
wonderful. it looks like this is going to be a novel or a longer short story. i’m glad that you decided to expand on it. it’s great and quite surprising to see how the women react to the creature. 🙂
February 12th, 2014 at 9:07 pm
I hadn’t thought of making it any longer before Sharmishtha mentioned it in comments, but it would be possible, by following the action throughout the whole history of the lamp. We’ll see. If I ever do, I’ll let you know. 🙂
February 13th, 2014 at 4:07 pm
LOVE IT! But I also want more. I missed the awakening that we caught a glimpse of in the first version.
February 13th, 2014 at 4:08 pm
Yeah, I debated that, but decided to go another way with it. If I ever do more with this idea, I’ll let you know.
February 13th, 2014 at 4:09 pm
I’ll stay tuned.
February 14th, 2014 at 2:58 am
I really enjoyed reading this. You sum up the different emotions of each of the women towards the eyes so succinctly. I read the short version after, and am hoping that somehow the glass still smashes. Jasper might scamper across the floor, but he might well be crushable under foot and so lose his power.
February 15th, 2014 at 10:38 pm
It was a tough decision, but in the full version I thought that Sara’s horror of her daughter becoming enthralled by the monster and her own inability to act was stronger than that of the thing waking up. I might do it differently if I had to write it again. I’m not sure how powerful Jasper might be, but I think he is quite powerful. If I ever write a novel about it, we’ll find out.
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